It wasn't the only definition of puritan that was available. But the other definition mentioned religious principals. Well, I've got principals but they aren't religious. As far as I can figure an all encompassing God would have a hard time seeing sense in exclusionary groups.
Yet puritan is a word that describes me frustratingly well. I am excessively concerned with propriety and decorum. That's the thing though, behind closed doors I could care less about such things - which makes writing this open forum blog a touch ironic.
I just wish the world was as old-fashioned as I feel. It is so hard for me to find a girl, someone to share some time with, someone to court. You see there's the old-fashioned again. I'd like it if I could court a girl. Just take that slow steady path towards an ever deepening relationship. Yet it seems like everyone around me is rushing head long towards sex and that nothing else matters.
Of course sometimes I think that way too. And I fear one day, after I've finally found that girl who takes the slow steady road with me, I'll give in to my simple urges. Because of that fear I live in a constant state of peremptory guilt. It's idiotic, yet here I am.
Watcher, are you listening? Why is it you look so insidiously for my buttons? Like tonight at work, that too young flower whose beauty fogs the mind of any sense only leaving room for lust. Why don't you encourage me to be the hero, instead of always tempting me to be the scoundrel?
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